Saturday, February 01, 2003
Well today was a good day. That is, until I got out of bed. I spent most of the morning hearing about the Columbia mission being “lost”. When I went to the Key Club Carwash to drop off the posters and stuff it was sort of hard to talk to anyone because it was on my mind. Thank you Elise…
But anyway my day got a little better after our church youth meeting. We might get a retreat to the monastery soon. I am dying to go even though it seems to mean church service from 4am to 10am. Hopefully the idea gets off the ground.
But on another note. Falling for the wrong guy… ? I don’t think I did. Possibly a difficult or even unobtainable one, but not wrong. And Bob, you aren’t wrong either. You just have very bad timing. Or too weak a stomach. Hehee.
And as for someone falling in love with more than one guy, well, I guess it’s falling in love with two different things you think you want but cannot decide between. There’s probably one you like more, or one you feel more at home with, or perhaps it’s just a “Love vs. Lust” thing. Maybe it’s all of the above.
And lastly, if someone says things that are ment to push you away or insult you, then they obviously have something to either hide or protect. Congratulations, you’re threatening.
well I was bored. There are a bunch of new test results up at How Am I? in case anyone cares. and yeah. Ciaociao.
Friday, January 31, 2003
If I don't say it now I will say it soon by accident. I've thought of it so many times and I even said it aloud once ot twice. I'm afraid if I become comfortable with the thought then one day it will be weighing even more heavily on my mind and someone will say something to me by surprise and I will blurt it out unawares. I must guard myself. The result could be good, or disasterous.
I feel so nosey!! I have a zillion different questions but I have to make Key Club posters. Argh. Well if I don't end up going anywheres tonite then I'll be sitting around in my garage painting and stuff. Come by and keep me company si vous voulez. And if you want. So Yeah. Ciaociao.
Thursday, January 30, 2003
As I reflect back on today (which I really prolly shouldn't be doing right now since I'm supposed to be working on my apgov't short answers.) I realize that I was pretty annoying. I guess I was weird today. Sorry Cassie but I wasn't the one who sat in front of me so it's not really my fault you are so botherable, and sorry to my AP gov group for being a faulty coin-flipper, and sorry to all the ap gov people for that odd sound I made when I dropped the coin, and sorry natalie except not until you give me back my eraser, and sorry ben and I don't know why you had Victor Contreres' math paper but you don't anymore, and um... well I don't think there's anything else to be sorry for. I wasn't the one hitting me with rolled up booklets while we walked to the spaghetti factory and I was nice enough to still give you guys rides. I amaze myself with my generousity sometimes... hehee.I don't think I will EVER get my nap. I've needed a few hours of extra sleep since forever and every single bloody trucking day something comes up. I come home too late to nap before hwk, Stupid JJ gets into stupid (not really but yeah) USC, someone I really need/want to talk to comes online, the key club poster has to be finished(it looked really cool, too bad.) , the key club video has to get made, everything and anything that could have happened, did. Well not everything but it was still very very frustrating. I know I can't sleep tomorrow either prolly bc there is a "maybe" BFC togetherness day. And I have to make Key Club carwash posters, for the carwash, which is on saturday. With conclave. grr... cheesy trucking rice. I'm sooo fatigué...
I hate not really knowing the meaning of something. Many splendoured things are hard to bear. And harder still to figure out. Though your path is lit, it could be light for someone else and so you never like to take the first step. If people shine in the same direction they cannot see where the others shine and whether their own light is recieved. So I wish I could just turn off my light and sink to my characteristic "defiant" pose sitting on the ground. In the middle of everyone. I would see everything, but I would also be part of nothing.
and, um, Yes. That doesn't sound very good. I did decide to re-read that since there was a minor-yet-major error that I had to correct in another post earlier. Usually I just type and what happens, just happens. I hate hate hate re-reading my writings and stuff ao I almost never do. so yeah.
I hate confusion. I love the moonlight. And I need to go to sleep.
Wednesday, January 29, 2003
Hey, Guess what? Well nothing much happened today. It was boring. But then, as soon as I go to sleep for like 15 mins, my mom says "hey, Justin's here" and I was like "euuuughhh...." because I was all tired and stuff. So I walked out and Justin attacked me and I bit my tongue bc his shoulder hit me. and he was yelling and stuff. It was crazy. oh, and btw, it was because he GOT INTO USC!!!Tuesday, January 28, 2003
I need to work on my posture. Ilck. Maybe when I get rid of my blasted headache. ooh... Yoga. I wish there was a nice early morning class. That would be a nice ritual. Wake up at five in the morning for an hour or so of yoga... and then hitting snooze and thinking of the lovely positions I could be doing. Energizing, ne?eeuuughhh.... I have had a headache now for about three days. At least. That means that when I'm not moving and I'm just sitting down innocently my whole head is dull and fuzzy and slightly achy. It also mean that when I move suddenly I have a shooting pain on the side of my head and part of my neck that doesn't stop until I slowly return it to the original position. Right now my neck is straining as I watch my fingers feebly fumble (ooh alliteration or somesuch... watch out for my snazzy eng vocab! hee. riiight) for the keys which is making my forehead hurt. The worst part? When I lie down my head slowly gets worse and more pressurized or something the longer I'm in any one posiion. And I won't even begin to describe what happens when I'm lying on a hard surface...
And I fasted today. On purpose. I have been feeling a bit odd lately (even xcepting the headache) esp. stomachwise. I didn't eat anything until I got home. Then I had lots of juice and two little sushies(is that what they're called individually? I am soooo ignorant on that topic. hee.) and a Tofu pocket. The wasabi prolly wasn't so great for an empty stomach. Then I was out of the house until 6ish and had a petite dinner of portebello mushroom ravioli and ketchup. And water. So it wasn't a total fast. But it was basically eat-as-little-as-possible-without-actually-going-without-food. I feel a little better for it too. Of course after Gilmore girls I kinda forgot and had garlic toast and feta. Oh well. If I still feel better tomorrow then it's back to normal eating anyway. Oh you don't think that's normal? : P . Well normal for me. But I think I still want sushi. Cravings. Lots of those lately. I think I'm pregnant. Now that would be interesting.
Ok well that's enough of my complaints. I figure that if I advertise them then some hypochondriac will pick them up and take them away for me. If only...
But I convinced my mom that Lisa was pregnant once. I'm sorry Lisa. But it was really funny. ah... memories. well actually it wasn't all that long ago. Anyways... I want to sleep and dream of flying. Or sleeping. Too bad I can't use cold compresses. Or hot ones. It just isn't done here.
Sunday, January 26, 2003
My cat is safe. My Richard. My favorite alongside Napoleon, with KabibeMaia as a guilty second. I thought he was gone and...Thank you G~d...
